when tomorrow start without me

When tomorrow starts without me, and I am not there to see,

If the sun should rise and find your eyes, all filled with tears for me; 

I wish so much you wouldn't cry, the way you did today,

While thinking of the many things, we didn't get to say. 

I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,

And each time that you think of me, I know you will miss me too; 

But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,

That an angel came and called my name, and took me by the hand, 

And said my place was ready, in heaven far above,

And that I'd have to leave behind, all those I dearly love. 

But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye
.

For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die. 

I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do,

It almost seemed impossible,
that I was leaving you. 

I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,

I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had. 

If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,

I'd say good-bye and kiss you,
and maybe see you smile. 

But then I fully realized, that this could never be,

For emptiness and memories, would take the place of me. 

And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow,

I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow. 

But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.

When God looked down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne, 

He said, "This is eternity, and all I have promised you.

Today your life on earth is past, but here life starts anew. 

I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,

And since each day's the same way, there's no longing for the past. 

You have been so faithful, so trusting and so true,

Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn't do. 

But you have been forgiven, and now at last you're free.

So won't you come and take my hand, and share my life with me?" 

So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,

For every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart.

Author: David M. Romano

PS: That was the moment she felt happy and sad, all at once. 

find the trigger(s)!

"Tetaplah disitu, aku takkan mengganggumu. Diam saja. Kita cukup saling memperhatikan, pelan-pelan saling melupakan"

Saya baru membaca posting-an teman saya di salah satu sosial media. Sebenarnya saya tidak terlalu terkejut membacanya. Sudah beberapa bulan terakhir ini dia memiliki 'masalah' dengan kekasihnya.

Terakhir saya mendengar cerita dari dia, hubungan mereka sudah 'susah' dipertahankan.

Hmm... saya ralat sedikit, bukan susah dipertahankan, tapi lebih tepatnya tidak tahu mau dibawa kemana. Sayangnya, saya tidak bisa menceritakan alasannya, terikat 'gentlemen agreement' hehehe.

Anyway, bukan itu yang ingin saya bicarakan saat ini. Saya hanya ingin menggaris bawahin kata-kata 'pelan-pelan saling melupakan'. Bagaimana cara melupakan dengan pelan-pelan? Semakin pelan kita coba melupakan, satu persatu kenangan itu muncul. Ending-nya, tidak akan pernah bisa dilupakan!

Saya pernah berdiskusi dengan salah satu teman tentang cara melupakan yang paling cepat. Jika kita mendapatkan trigger(s) yang tepat. Jika tidak pernah menemukannya, jangan pernah berharap bisa melupakan!

-- good night --